Cross Post – Struggling, Down but Not Out

I sent this to my Hektech email subscribers and thought it was appropriate to post here. Enjoy!

The title sounds a little worse than it truly is, but last night was hard. My wife, Sherece, was down, sick and in terrible pain but she fights on! I on the other hand, was struggling, not with sickness, but with the thoughts of what I really want to do. See for the last 5-6 weeks I have been meeting with a friend in Tulsa and we have both been stopping the rush of the day once a week for an hour or so to truly examine what we are doing day to day. For him, it has meant putting himself out there more to take larger risks in his businesses. For me, it has resulted in a lot of self-examination that seemed to lead to unclear paths until yesterday. However, once I had an “answer” the struggle began. I have always known at some point I wanted to write, be a blogger, or write a business book. I have hundreds of “blog” posts and other articles that I have started and I am willing to bet 50/50 ratio of finished to unfinished but compared to how much I write I only put a very small amount out into the world.

The biggest struggle of this is centered around money.

I have never seen a clear and “quick” path to making money writing things. I had always told myself that after one of my many business deals was successful then I would cash in and write about it or other things. I love researching, digging a little deeper and finding what is newer than the next guy. So it also came out that I had always seen myself as some sort of investigative blogger, and I love the idea of doing podcasts.

But I think these things have given me a great strength and a weakness at the same time. Often I am too far ahead of the curve for my own good, and I can not learn the tools fast enough to use them. One great example is the WordPress Rest-API, which means great things for any business using WordPress. However, unless you have a team of developers or are willing to pay for custom development then you will be waiting 2-5 years for community versions of things that will really be useful. I know I don’t have the budget for that.

Do it public and do it loud.

I think this is why I started doing the “Let’s Build a Business” series. Secret goals have always been a part of this, first I saw it as a way to get rid of forever the need [want] I have had to do it right and make it work the way it was originally intended, but more to the point I saw as a way to get vital business skills and knowledge I don’t have or shore up other issues I fail to recognize. Originally I saw this as a 1-year process that would just happen in my spare time, but now I see the only way to do it right is to just get it done! I have condensed the schedule for it down to about 1.5 months and I will try to shrink it much further.

Here is the crazy part of it all. Every time that I think about doing any of these things I’m stopping myself short and putting on the breaks. I know I won’t have any issues once I just start, but there is always that fear that sets in when something is new. And for me, the fear is always greater if perceive the possible change to be larger. I feel like these changes will be just that very large!

Another Day At It: What To Do

I have been thinking all weekend what to do, today. Today is hard.

Basically, I have too many things to do. I also know the importance of some over others but the clarity goes way down when you talk about what makes money today vs what makes it tomorrow. I think I have to evaluate things like this:

  • What needs to get done?
  • What is right for the enterprise?

Now those are taken directly from the book Effective Executive by Peter Drucker. There are other pertinent questions, but if you want to distil things down to a base and work from there these truly are the right questions.

Now I must set out to take care of these things the best I can!

All The Things Are Changing

All The Things Are Changing

Change although typically viewed as bad is almost always good.

Take for instance Sherece and me, recently (yesterday) we completed the 30 day run of The Whole 30, we are 3 lessons into Dave Ramseys Finacial Peace University, and we are looking at what else we can improve.

On the business side of things, I have moved nearly every website to a faster and more secure setup. And I have started the “Let’s Build a Business” series and that has changed my thinking in several things. Already one buddy has pointed out several flaws in the first episode, some are minor oversights, others are major flaws in my logic of how things would be perceived and not properly explaining them in the video. I hope that by tomorrow I have things together well enough to release episode 2.

Picture of the i Ching also known as the Book of Changes. Take a look at the history and more on Wikipedia

Not Knowing the Best way to Deal with a Problem

I have started this post numerous times but never finish it. This time, I am just going to keep it short and sweet because I think I have a solution.

For those of you that don’t know, I have hypothyroidism. The reason I never finish this post is because this story involves so much. It involves a lot in the way of general practitioners not knowing what I think they should. It involves 2.5 years of constant blood tests and a much longer time of just not feeling like things are right yet.

I know when things are good I can live a consistent life waking up on time, staying awake and focused through the day, and not falling asleep so early that you’d think I was a grandpa. But things over the last couple of years have not been good as I call them.

Most recently after my last doctor, the one that got it right, retired. When this happened, I thought, no big deal I can find a new doctor… Let me just shorten this up by saying I was wrong.

I went to the health clinic near my work, and after they ran the most expensive test, and the doctor made me feel like he didn’t listen or care. My tests came back on the high side (indicating I need more medication), however, instead of looking at the symptoms I was reporting and the past history of levels that had worked for me I was told, “you are within the normal range”.

Now to understand the frustration here you have to realize that I have been through this before. I have been in and out of the doctors offices’ spending God only knows amounts of money. And now I FEEL like I am back at square one.

It doesn’t help that nearly everything that I have had go wrong with me in the last 6 months or so is related… Yes, 6 months. I am making an appointment with a specialist in the next week, I had felt like I could not take the time off of work or my boss would stroke out.

Trust me when I say this is much shorter than the other versions. There is just so much to say about it because it affects almost everything in your body and mind. From how tired you feel (with regard to sleep and physically), to how you think and remember things (not well). I really hope seeing a specialist will put this to bed for once and all. Because the costs of not taking care of it are far too great.

PS – I haven’t paid the clinic. Shame on me for not writing a letter to explain why I have not paid them. But much like these blog posts on the subject; there is too much to say and only so much paper in the world. I guess I just need to keep it short and sweet and send them the money when I can anyways, maybe they will be able to invest in some updated charts and information.

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